hopes

Been trying my best and im not gonna give up.
I know you hear every single thing.
Im desperate but I cant show it.
Only you know oh Allah.
Please dont cut this hope
I believe ull fulfill it . You will.
I try my best to give all I have.
For the sake of you. yes YOU

nikah gantung

assalamualaikum.

someone asked my opp on nikah gantung.
its actually my cousins yang tanya.

masa dia tanya tu .. iwas like.
aku takde jawapan untuk itu.
and i have no idea what is nikah gantung actually.

bila cousins aku cerita more further aku baru cam .. oh i see...

pastu dia kata ramai students involved dalam nikah gantung ni.

haha. aku cam... kiddin me?

okay so pendapat aku eh?
Bagi aku, its not wrong and totally worth it.

maybe someone akan cakap still students, banyak benda nak settle or under jagaan parents or so whatever.

tapi bagi aku , kalau one person tu mmg dah srsly nak into mariatal. why not kan?
as long dia bertanggungjawab.

aku rasa mentally barat yang macam.. finish ur studies first and get a job, and beli rumah and kumpul harta and and and........

tapi bila kita tgok islamic perspective its actually opposite.

while islam mmg galakkan kalau dah mmg ada org nak kahwin then cepat2.
my parents pun setuju bab ni.

and bagi aku perkahwinan tu something yang Allah rdha.
as long as niat tu betul nak kahwin sebba apa. and yeah thats it!
niat tu. sebab apa?
kalau sebab Allah, yes Allah akan mudahkan.

bagi aku lebih better nikah gantung dari couple. nanti dah ada duit then buat lahhh big event (if u want)

tapi simple lagi Allah suka ;)

and one more cousins aku tanya opp aku on lelaki yang terus jumpa parents instead of askin' you first.

Idk about others, tapi bagi aku this kind of guy totally gentle.

entahlah. aku suka org yg straight to the point just cakap je terus.
kalau jumpa parents and asks for hand then lagi great.

berani kan. bukan senang weh. I know it. tapi parents aku okay je. dia cam... lagi suka kalau lelaki tu terus jumpa.

TAPI.

kalau ada someone yang mengaku dkat aku pun aku respect.
and aku benci nak ketawakan people's feelin'

its not aku akan terjebak dgn couple. becaus aku takkan couple.

cuma as long dia usaha towards halal. aku akan setia.
effort tu. yes effort.

so bagi aku its not worth laa kalau couple pastu entahlah.. aku rasa cam buang tu ini, pastu tahlah. budak tu tak halal lagi and kau dah belikan tu ini and jadi murah pegang sana sini. keluar sana sini. sweet sana sini. nanti lepas kahwin nak buat apa lagi? dah tak sweet.

so bagi aku kalau still insists jugak. rindu kepeke. buat cara islam lah.

buat cara Allah redha. nak jumpa boleh kot, tapi ada org ketiga la. or maybe nak ws ke? tapi elakkan lah. bahaya. :)

so bagi aku , tak salah kahwin gantung or nikah muda.
tu pendapat aku la.
as long Allah redha, Allah suka then takde apa yg salah.

buat apa nak ikut pandangan org sedangkan pandangan Allah lagi penting?
as long niat tu bcause of Allah.
everything will be fine :)

pastu banyak lagi kelebihan about this. so google. it. ni opp aku je.

aku setuju and paling penting redha Allah

Run back to Allah

Assalamualaikum
run back to Allah.
No matter whatever sins you've commited. just go back to him.
HE'LL SURELY WILL FORGIVES YOU.
Allah said in the Quran I forgot what the soorah is. But Allah have said that HE FORGIVES ALL SINS. ALL SINS.
yes, we all sinners.
we do, we made alot of mistakes
but we can start a new journey again. with new start fresh start which is tawbah.

So ive do some researched bout people who said Allah will never forgives to those who commited shrik.
means here He/she believes that other things can replaces Allah capability.
so the point here is.
Allah will never forgives if YOU DEAD AND WITH THAT SIN(SHRIK/SYIRIK)
but when you still breath and alive Yes you can make real tawbah and asks Allah forgiveness
Allah will SURELY forgives you.
And Allah can even changes those BIG SIN that you've commited to BIG DEEDS. so? what you waiting for?
while youre still alive. run back to him.
Dont you believes that Allah mercy ARE THE GREATEST? ALLAH LOVES TO THOSE WHO REPENTS.
AND THIS ARTICLES ITSELF ARE SHOUTOUT FOR YOU GUYS WHO NOW READ THIS TO RUN BACK TO ALLAH.
BECAUSE GUYS YOU CANT EVEN READ THIS IF ALLAH DONT ALLOWED YOU TO.
EVEN A SINGLE LEAF THAT FALL DOWN TO THE EARTH IS BEACUSE ALLAH HAVE WRITTEN IT. AND BECAUSE OF THE WILL OF ALLAH.
SO CAN YOU REALIZES THAT ALLAH CHOOSE YOU? RUN BACK. RUN BACK TO HIM :).
HE USES ME AS A MEAN TO WRITE THIS FOR YOU.
how sweet Allah is? :)
goodluck.

experiencessssss

calamaties, tribulations , test and test. hardship.

sometimes Allah want us to see.
What is like to feel helpless.
like when no ones couldnt hear you
or be there for you. comfort you and listens to you.
.
.
And with hardship. You finally knew it. How is it like to feel when nobodysss there.
to...
help,cure,listens and comfort you.

So now, you go to Allah.
wondering if HE can fill you up
Suddenly you get surprised with the results.

That 'emptiness' that you longing for so long is now have been filled.
now
you feel comfort a bit.
and...
when all the hardships gone
you start to forget who is the one that take it away.
You think that it is your effort.

and suddenly you forgetten that you've prayed to Allah.
and asked. to removes those calamaties.
so you forget HIM
again.
YOU FEEL MESS UP AGAIN THIS TIME.
its like.. you cant even focus in ur life.
so you try to find those 'fill' and perhaps it could fill you again, like before.

searching. and searching.
all the hardship is gone but those heart is like... yearning for something.

and you try to fill that up with music, people and worldly materials.
perhaps it will be the cure.
And yes, it can fill you up.
you finally relief.
But when the night comes..
you all alone.
you put on ur music again. perhaps it could fill that emptiness or that 'lonely' moments.
perhaps some hardcore music could help. or any sentimental music to make ur mind relax.
.
.
and finally your phones just dead.
now what?
you all alone in ur world
feeling empty. feeling lost.
that music couldnt helps you anymore
It just gone.
so you go to people. to fill you up.
or cheer you up.
finally they gone. and you all alone again.
and you go to places that maybe could cure those disease
and suddenly those places just gone with disaster.
and now you have nothing. nothing to fill you up
And now you return to Allah.
Allah , fill me up please , Im just lost.
cant help myself.
And Allah take away your sight and your hearing.

take away your fam too.
You was like. what is this? Dont you love me Allah?
Allah.. all I ask is to fill me up.
thats all. but why you took that away.
you questioned it. again and again.
But still, you couldnt find those answers.
so you cry and beg to Allah.
Allah please return my sight and hearing.
But still no answers

You dont give up. theres something in ur hearts that forces you to ask Allah more and more.
so you do that.
Ask Allah. again and again.

month after month.
year after year.

begging.
to Allah.
crying at the middle of night.
every seconds, every minutes.
Allah.. please. return it.
thats all you ask every seconds.
Your day cant be passes without you asking Allah.
And now you realizes that.
woo wait a minute. where all those emptiness? I mean that emptiness that I ask Allah to fill me up before?It just gone.

And you keep on thinking. what is happening here.
And you realizes that its because you remember Allah so much until you cant even feel that emptiness in ur heart.
It just fill you up.
even with those simplest dua.

Now you feel content. you feel bless with hardships that come to you.
And you found those answers.
Allah, without you im empty and i couldnt breath :).

Anything.

Im bored to death right now.

And when im bored to death ill miss people and i hate it cz i hate miss people.

Hahahahahàhaaahaha.

What should i do?

How do i kno im bored?

The moment when you type this;

Asdfghjklqwertyuiopzxcvbnm

And click that. And youll know that you actually bored to death 😂

mey

Aku cam addicted dengan benda comel.

especially baby.
aku taktahu laa apa yang specialnya baby ni tapi aku tgok baby comelllll sangat sangat.

tak kira la putih ke hitam ke hijau ke. semua comel.

dorg macam species innocent tau.

eee asal baby comel sgt eh?
lagi lagi yang twinn ya Allah comelll laaaaaaaaa!!!!!!


aku obses lah dgn baby yg comel ni. i cant live w/o baby.
setiap gerak geri baby semua comel bagi aku. comel laaa taktau nak describe macam mana .


nak baby laaa :'(
macam nak bela adik angkat jeeeeeeeeeeee.

pastu yg kedua aku suka sangat kucing comel comellllll. urgh ni pun species aku geram.

macam eyyy nak gomol je asal laaa comel sgt ehhh

tapi tulaaa mak aku tak bgi bela sejak kucing aku yang tu dah mati.
tapi srs laaaa kucing macam faham apa yang kita rasa.
aku still ingat kot time tu aku darjah 6 kot. pastu aku sakit telinga and aku mmg suka stay up tuk study. kucing tu je yang jaga aku. nama dia putih.


ya ALLAH RINDU NYA. mesti kucing tu masuk syurga sskarang.

paling best moment dia kejut parents aku solat subuh and dia tidur dgn aku every night. sampai satu tahap tu dia miowww depan pintu aku soh aku buka pintu.
and that time aku marah sgt laa kot. yela dah tido kan pastu kena buka pintu bagai nak bagi dia masuk.

nasib aku bagi and.... tu la hari terakhir dia tidur dgn aku :'(

tak silap bulan 11 kot time tu.

2minggu kot aku jadi gila bayang.
pantang nampak plastik putih or benda putih aku mesti ingat tu dia.

kejadian petang tu takkan aku lupa sampai bila bila.
dalam kOl 5.20 kot.
aku tengah lipat baju dgn mak aku.
tiba tiba ada pakcik cakap 'putih kena langgar'

and i was like. eh tadi bukan dia singgah jap ke makan?

asal tiba tiba.

aku kalau benda camni mmg phobia sikit. sebba aku ni benci kehilangan/perpisahan etc.

aku tak boleh hadap.

and aku takkan hadap.

so aku buat buat cam nothing tapi deep inside. Allah............. :'(


so aku pun duk kat bilik nangis gila2. ayah aku dah tengok dah putih nak confirm kan and ajak aku skali nak tgok untuk kali terakhir before kebumi. aku tak sanggup weh. srs aku tak sanggup sebab aku benci nak hadap semua tu. aku benci sangat. aku takut.

benda paling aku takut sangat hilang orang/haiwan yang aku sayang. masatu mentally masih tak yakin yang segala sesuatu temporary and milik Allah. masa tu Allah still nak uji aku. ni cam 1st ujian la. ujian loss.

time tu aku sampai tahap Allah amik nyawa aku plis aku nak follow putih. aku doa weh. pastu cam hidup tak terurus. HAHA. srs.

and masa mengubati semuanya.
sejak dari tu aku cam berusaha untuk kalau sayang jangan sayang sangat and paling penting takde milik kita. semua Allah.milik Allah.

lepastu makin banyak ujian and ujian sampailah sekarang. aku dah redha and aku tahu takkan ada apa yg jadi milik aku, selamanya.

tapi still aku rindu putih :'(
and aku takut nak bela kucing lagi takut sayang sgt pastu mati nanti ...ugh!!!"" phobia weh :'(


third, aku suka teddy bear. ahhahahha asal comel sgt eh teddy bear?
before aku ada 2 big teddy tapi cam biasala rumah aku sering dikunjungi oleh bdak2
and budak2 tu akan singgah bilik aku. so kalau dia nampak teddy bear kat bilik aku sambil sengih mata terkebil sesedap je bawak keluar macam milik dia *urgh

aku pun cam... takpe main laaa sambil sengih paksa. HAHA.

masa berlalu.sejam, dua jam and..... 'mama nak teddy ni,! nak bawak balik" and i was likeee

eh budak tu teddy aku !!! sampai hati bergocak! sayang weh.


budk tu pun still mama i want that i wanttttttttt sambil acah taknak balik.

duh apa aku nak buat ni, nak taknak terpaksa la korbankan satu. aku bgila teddy bear yang ada peluk love tu kat dia.

suka gila dia lol

and since tht kalau ada budak datang nak minta teddy aku cakap nanti akak belikan eh. sambil tanya warna apa bagai.

weh aku pun nak teddy baru sesenang je nak aku belikan. ingat murahhh keee. HAHAHAH dahla comel teddy tu

asal laaa comel sgt. dahlah gebu duh . takpe nanti aku beli banyak lagi. tapi yang ada kat rumah ni pun kawan aku yg bagi hhahahah.

mak aku cam taknak layan kalau aku nak beli dia kata aku cam budak2 :'(


Aku cam addicted dengan benda comel.

especially baby.
aku taktahu laa apa yang specialnya baby ni tapi aku tgok baby comelllll sangat sangat.

tak kira la putih ke hitam ke hijau ke. semua comel.

dorg macam species innocent tau.

eee asal baby comel sgt eh?
lagi lagi yang twinn ya Allah comelll laaaaaaaaa!!!!!!


aku obses lah dgn baby yg comel ni. i cant live w/o baby.
setiap gerak geri baby semua comel bagi aku. comel laaa taktau nak describe macam mana .


nak baby laaa :'(
macam nak bela adik angkat jeeeeeeeeeeee.

pastu yg kedua aku suka sangat kucing comel comellllll. urgh ni pun species aku geram.

macam eyyy nak gomol je asal laaa comel sgt ehhh

tapi tulaaa mak aku tak bgi bela sejak kucing aku yang tu dah mati.
tapi srs laaaa kucing macam faham apa yang kita rasa.
aku still ingat kot time tu aku darjah 6 kot. pastu aku sakit telinga and aku mmg suka stay up tuk study. kucing tu je yang jaga aku. nama dia putih.


ya ALLAH RINDU NYA. mesti kucing tu masuk syurga sskarang.

paling best moment dia kejut parents aku solat subuh and dia tidur dgn aku every night. sampai satu tahap tu dia miowww depan pintu aku soh aku buka pintu.
and that time aku marah sgt laa kot. yela dah tido kan pastu kena buka pintu bagai nak bagi dia masuk.

nasib aku bagi and.... tu la hari terakhir dia tidur dgn aku :'(

tak silap bulan 11 kot time tu.

2minggu kot aku jadi gila bayang.
pantang nampak plastik putih or benda putih aku mesti ingat tu dia.

kejadian petang tu takkan aku lupa sampai bila bila.
dalam kOl 5.20 kot.
aku tengah lipat baju dgn mak aku.
tiba tiba ada pakcik cakap 'putih kena langgar'

and i was like. eh tadi bukan dia singgah jap ke makan?

asal tiba tiba.

aku kalau benda camni mmg phobia sikit. sebba aku ni benci kehilangan/perpisahan etc.

aku tak boleh hadap.

and aku takkan hadap.

so aku buat buat cam nothing tapi deep inside. Allah............. :'(


so aku pun duk kat bilik nangis gila2. ayah aku dah tengok dah putih nak confirm kan and ajak aku skali nak tgok untuk kali terakhir before kebumi. aku tak sanggup weh. srs aku tak sanggup sebab aku benci nak hadap semua tu. aku benci sangat. aku takut.

benda paling aku takut sangat hilang orang/haiwan yang aku sayang. masatu mentally masih tak yakin yang segala sesuatu temporary and milik Allah. masa tu Allah still nak uji aku. ni cam 1st ujian la. ujian loss.

time tu aku sampai tahap Allah amik nyawa aku plis aku nak follow putih. aku doa weh. pastu cam hidup tak terurus. HAHA. srs.

and masa mengubati semuanya.
sejak dari tu aku cam berusaha untuk kalau sayang jangan sayang sangat and paling penting takde milik kita. semua Allah.milik Allah.

lepastu makin banyak ujian and ujian sampailah sekarang. aku dah redha and aku tahu takkan ada apa yg jadi milik aku, selamanya.

tapi still aku rindu putih :'(
and aku takut nak bela kucing lagi takut sayang sgt pastu mati nanti ...ugh!!!"" phobia weh :'(


third, aku suka teddy bear. ahhahahha asal comel sgt eh teddy bear?
before aku ada 2 big teddy tapi cam biasala rumah aku sering dikunjungi oleh bdak2
and budak2 tu akan singgah bilik aku. so kalau dia nampak teddy bear kat bilik aku sambil sengih mata terkebil sesedap je bawak keluar macam milik dia *urgh

aku pun cam... takpe main laaa sambil sengih paksa. HAHA.

masa berlalu.sejam, dua jam and..... 'mama nak teddy ni,! nak bawak balik" and i was likeee

eh budak tu teddy aku !!! sampai hati bergocak! sayang weh.


budk tu pun still mama i want that i wanttttttttt sambil acah taknak balik.

duh apa aku nak buat ni, nak taknak terpaksa la korbankan satu. aku bgila teddy bear yang ada peluk love tu kat dia.

suka gila dia lol

and since tht kalau ada budak datang nak minta teddy aku cakap nanti akak belikan eh. sambil tanya warna apa bagai.

weh aku pun nak teddy baru sesenang je nak aku belikan. ingat murahhh keee. HAHAHAH dahla comel teddy tu

asal laaa comel sgt. dahlah gebu duh . takpe nanti aku beli banyak lagi. tapi yang ada kat rumah ni pun kawan aku yg bagi hhahahah.

mak aku cam taknak layan kalau aku nak beli dia kata aku cam budak2 :'(




forth aku suka berbual dgn budak. whatever budak asal belum baligh lagi.

hahahaha tapi aku paling suka beebual dgn budak umur 5-9 tahun.
aku suka dgar dia punya speech.

every ayat dia cakap.aku rasa cam tah laahhh comel.
aku suka.

especially kalau dia beebual dgn kawan dia aku akan buat2 tido ke aku nak dgar dorg borak apa.

and selalunya mesti cerita diorg lawak pastu comel.

patu masing2 nak menang
aku suka laa. i just love kiddos.

that is why aku rasa nanti aku nak anak kembar lah. baby boy.
sebab kalau baby gurl mati aku solek semua dia rembat HAHA.

nanti dia berbual aku nak dengar.
aamiin..


fifth aku suka coklat, gula kapas or anything yg bungkus comel comelllllll

AKU SUKA SANGAT.
coklat cadbury kr any coklat or gula kapas comel laa rasa macam makan awan.
ahahahahhahajaja urgh obses nyaaaaaaaa.

pastu aku suka semua benda warna pink.
kalau boleh nak cat satu bilik warna pink. urgh bila nak matang ni? :'(

mak aku cakap warna pink warna budak bodo pegh sedih weh. HHAHAHA.

ala dah suka nak buat camne kan.
tapi now macam kurang sikit la obses nya dulu gila obses aku dgn pink.

now kurang sikit but masih into that kind of colour.baby pink baby blue....... baby purple apa apa depan baby.
pastel colour la katako.
but still pink carta number satu.


to be conclude, apa apa spesis or benda or apa apa perkara yg comel semua aku suka okay. i just like it.

p/s :tapi still aku macam nak gomol baby la sekarang. nak cekau kat mana niiii.
nanti nak kerja tadika laa.

deep inside

gotta admit that i miss ya
and i cant forget ya
no matter whut i do im gonna miss ya
i hate this but i have to admit that.
i hate this feelin' inside and i hope i can kill it by myself.
it haunts me like every sec and i hate it.
I hate it.
should i repeat it 100 times or should i shout it out loud so that the whole world would listen?

I hate to admit this but I cant deny the fact that i miss you.


and I feel like im dyin inside
wanna shout but i cant cz i know its gonna hurt me.
I make the same mistakes all over again
I hope it will settle down
and this is my first time postin' like this i know it.

i just cant help myself.
I hope I never know you.
I hope
But theres no hope when its actually happened
Have to accept the fact that im gonna hurt.
scary chapter of my life.
sometimes i gotta be honest that im not too strong.
im weak. yes i am.
i hate to admit but i gotta admit that i have feeling too and sometimes i hope i never have it.
But im only human.
been there many times.
really hopes that ill run from it but i just cant.
im here. trappin' trappin' trappin'
please listen that im trappin'
you know who you are.
come and save me.
you know who you are.
you are.
yes .
you. :')