Success

Tiba tiba kan aku trrfikir tau
Kan Allah cipta kita kat dunia ni just for beribadat kepadaNYA.
Means here the point kita ada kat dunia ni. Memang untuk itu kan.
I mean. Kenapa kita tak nampak?
kita tahu yet kita still buat buat lupa.
Kita tahu apa itu ultimate success.
Kita tahu kita akan mati and kita tahu setiap orang hidup tak lama.
kita tahu semua tu.
Tapi kita still lalai.
Still expect dunia everything.
Still expect dunia is your happiness
Sedangkan dunia ni as tangga untuk kita gapai jannah.
Pastu kan.
Entahlah aku just tetiba terfikir.
Aku macam rasa banyak buang masa.
Padahal the real home kita is heaven kan.
Kenapa manusia dia dah tahu yet dia still buat tak tahu ha
Aku macam rasa jannah tu lagi lah boleh bagi motivations tuk kita compared to any other stuff in dunya.
I still think that people maybe afraid of death thats why they never talk about that.
But sure  lets be real here. We all gonna die. cepat atau lambat. YES we will.
Including myself. Too much leka.
just too much :'(
My goals is just one.
To be in Jannah with the people I love.
I want it so bad.
And one more thing people always said that.. we need to imagine or do a vision in our mind like whatever goal we want so it will happen.
So kalau camtu why not kita just imagine jannah je in our head with the clue yang Allah dah stated dekat Al quran. Aku rasa thats it. Thats the real real real goal.
So we will do anything to achieves that right. I mean jannah

Dunia pun makin sampai penghujung.
Kiamat makin hampir.
kita bila nak betul btul khusyuk ingat Allah.?
too much alasan when it comes to obey Allah kan :(
Typical humans.
hmph, so me.
padahal dunia ni sementara je, and ni semua dugaan je.
why kita semua tak nampak eh? why just why?
:'(
In shaa Allah from now onwards I will try my best to make Jannah as my motivations.
The real reasons why I not sleep, the real reason of my sweat.
Lets make this world not our goal. Just dont. We dont end up here guys. We just dont.
I dont want to regret later so perhaps I should prepare now.
I will. Pray for me :)

wish

As salam
Now aku otw nak balik kg.
Normally kalau balik kg aku suka tgok kehebatan ciptaan Allah.
Awan,pokok,sungai,laut,burung and manusia.
Aku suka.
Pastu aku fikir, Masha Allah betapa hebatnya ciptaan Allah
masha Allah, Allahuakhbar
tak terungkap kata.
pastu aku compare dgn something yang aku nakkk sgt
Kalau nak compare dgn apa yg Allah cipta ni.......
nak compare dgn hajat aku ni...
Masya Allah senang sangat kot kalau Allah nak makbulkan.
well, mana ada benda susah and mustahil pada Allah.
Kun fayakun.
Anything could happen. ANYTHING
Ada satu hajat yang aku NAK sangat.
Takpe aku yakin dgn Allah. Aku yakin
keep on dua.
do ur duty as slaves.
Astaghfirullahalazim..

elyn

I hate to fall in love.

As salam

Tbh I hate to fall in loves. Its not kind of my fav thing. And it doesnt mean im not believe in loves.
Just nowadays. I mean look at the world now, its kinda hard to find 'love'

I hate to fall in love and  at one time I dont believe in love , I must be honest.

Im afraid of being rejected, ignored.
Idk it just me.

From my past relationship,
Im the one who always asked to end the relationship.yup exact, me.
Why?
Idk. I just dont believe any guy.
Im afraid if one day he might cheat on me and Im gonna......
I hate those feelings.

Idk what kind of phobia I am.
yes thats me. Im fear of being hurt. hurtphobia? mybe?

Im kind of person who really strict when it comes bout this.

Sometimes I hate myself because of this phobia.
Im overthinking.
I always think the 'thing' that might happened and yup thats why my past relationship doesnt work
I think too much. When its actually nothing happened.
Im afraid it might happened so I act before it happened

Idk how to change this habit.

And I made a decisions. . .
I put all my trust on Allah.
I dont want to think.

Im fear of being hurt.
I hate to fall in love.
I hate to miss people
I hate to leave alone
I just hate to cling with people
I dont want that.

Cz I know... people might change.
I will not believe in any guy except he really shows me that he wants me.
I dont accept couple
Im not easily to fall in love and if you really want me. Make it happen.
I dont believe in couple , I believe in nikah. Islam way.

I adore them

As salam

parents aku. the only couple yang aku adore sangat :'(

even dorg dah 40s tapi kasih sayang diorang tu.

pegh sampai aku pun jeles haha.

Baru aku perasan apa yang membuatkan dorg so romantic eventhough dah 40s.

their character.

ayah aku, jarang marah, mudah tolerate, serious. ayah aku susah sangat nak marah. ayah aku tak pernah marah aku. aku pun pelik kenapa. and tak pernah langsung aku nampak ayah aku naik suara towards my mom. I adore him, nanti nak cari husband centu lah, susah marah.

and yup, my mom. dia ni understanding, contoh kalau ayah aku kat tempat kerja kem she wont call or ws him sebab takut ganggu walaupun kekadang dia cam tanya ayah mana ni? tapi she keep on controling her emotion, until my dad ws or call her.

adore :') 

ya Allah. I will always pray their happiness  Im so blessed to have them in my life.

kadang kdang malam malam time kirltorg semua dah tido diorang gi pasar. 

only dia duorang. sweet sangat haha

nak date letew. kadang2 malu plak aku dah umur 19 ni duk satu rumah. aku rasa cam aku ni jadi pengacau dorg.

patutlah kalau dah teenagers kena duk merantau. I think that one of the reasons. To give them romantic time together.

And the most romantic bila ayah aku balik kerja.

mak aku akan masak and bagi ayah aku makan, sambil tu..mak aku akan tengokk je ayah aku makan.

And ayah aku tak pernah langsung complained mak aku masak tak sedap. never. He always said sedap. seriously :')

kalau aku pun, aku akan  happy aku masak tak sedap and org cakap sedap haha.

well aku tak pandai masak :'(

hmph kena belajar ni.

pastu paling sweet bila dorg jemaah sama sama. haha aku tengokk je.

mals nak kacau.

andd the moment bila ayah aku nak bgi mak aku duit.

dia akan cakap 'wah duk rumah pun dapat duit eh?' sambil senyum2' ya Allah :')

ahhhahahah . okay lah thats all.

Aku just nak share the only couple yg aku adore after rasulullah ..are my parents :') hope dorang kekal and happy till jannah.

Amin ya Allah.

elyn

Form 6 life.

As salam
so its 2:31 a.m and I still dont sleep.
just want to share a bit bout form 6 to siapa siapa yang maybe nak try this out.
so untuk ada di form 6 you gotta need prepared your soul and mind.
seriously.
Now aku dekat sem 2 and kerja kursus is damn lot. Like you dont have any rest at all.
You will not sleep.
And its just part of ur life if u want to be here.
You gotta prepare yourself seriously.
but, its worth it
Nanti masuk university terus degree
so your effort will effect the whole results.
form 6 taught me to be more matured in life ,sebab tbh aku ni still kanak kanak lagi kot
lol
perasan muda.
But effort, effort jugak.
Tapi yang most importantly
Allah.
please, jaga yang ni.
Kau tak jaga yang ni
serious talk
kau akan cepat down. akan lemah.
Rapat rapat lah dengan Allah.
seriously.
I just share by apa yang aku experienced.
The moment kau rasa down, kau check balik ur relation dengan Allah.
And kau akan jumpa.
In shaa Allah I can made it.
1 year left and IM GONNA FREE FROM ALL OF THISSS!
BUT IM GONNA MISS MY TEACHERS AND FRIENDS
:'(

BYE NAK SAMBUNG ASSIGNMENT YANG TERTANGGUH.
MARI BUAT DEMI MASA DEPAN ANDA. SETAHUN JEEE. JYEAHHHH.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAJAHA
NGANTUK SEH :( .
ITS OKAY, ALLAH ADA :)
 TILL HERE.
ELYN :)

aku lalai

I wonder.
kalau kita ni lalai dari mengingati Allah kan.
Means here, the moment kita tak zikir and ingat Allah or do anything yang buat kita lupa Allah its mean that kita LALAI DARI INGAT ALLAH.
Allah..
lalai weh. lalai :'(
Banyak kali aku lalai.
kadang tgok tv sampai lupa Allah.
berbual dgn kawan sampai lupa Allah.
Main hp sampai lupa Allah
sedih nya :(
sedangkan Allah tak pernah pun lalai bagi aku rezeki, kalau time aku susah Allah tolong aku.
sedangkan aku? nak zikir pun payah.
hamba jenis apa aku ni :'(
ya Allah :(
so lets refesh.
sebab Allah dah kata dengan mengingati Allah hati akan tenang.
and berjaya lah org yang sentiasa mengingati Allah dengan sebanyak banyaknya.
jangan lalai lagi
dunia dah akhir zaman
so just face the reality.
dunia memang akhir zaman.
kita akan mati.
just face it.
tak payah nak buat buat lupa
dah banyak tanda Allah bagi weh.
banyak.
kita still nak happy lagi ke?
still nak fikir pasal dunia?
saudara islam kita kat syria tu krna tindas weh, beribu berjuta org mati :'(
kanak kanak tu. ya Allah tak sanggup :'(
still lagi kita nak happy ke?
buat benda lagha?
tengok hiburan tu, ini.
lalai. masih lalai. lalai :'(
sedangkan kita tahu kita akan mati.
tapi kita buat dunia ni macam tempat selamanya.
dunia. sementara.
semua benda kat dunia sementara.
Aku sedih sengan dri aku sendiri :'(
orang kat sana kelaparan, kehausan
setiap hari minta tolong.
and aku kat sini?
still boleh happy lagi
hang out bagai.
apa semua ni? :(
sedangkan mereka saudara seislam kita.
our destiny should be jannah.
not dunya.
nanti bila dah masuk syurga nak rehat rehatlah puas puas.
dunya is not for rest.
its for u to pulun all the deeds.
seriously.
dunia makin akhir.
akhir sangat.
fitnah dajjal merata :(
kita pulak?
takde preparation
lalai ingat Allah.
happy lagi.
fikir benda tak penting lagi

tak ingat mati
tak fikir akhirat.
sedangkan....
masha Allah :(

*this post is really for me. yang lalai :(

elyn

HOW TO GET MOTIVATION

As salam

so ni 1st update of 2016.

just nak share something about apa yang aku rasa and hadapi now.

kekuatan.motivasi.

tu semua milik Allah.

students selalu nak dua benda tu untuk diorang terus move forward to further studies kan. bila mana kita macam unmotivated. 

kita rasa cam urgh. Just stop. stop everything.

Nasihat aku, istighfar banyak2 pastu terus solat dua rakaat.

kalau tahajjud lagi better.

pastu time doa tu.

betul betul rasa yang kita ni hamba.

Allah dah cakap, segala apa di langit dan dibumi dan di antara keduanya MILIK ALLAH.

REPEAT. MILIK ALLAH.

kenapa kau unmotivated?

thats mean Allah tak bagi lah semangat kat kau.

Thats why you need doa and ask HIM. SUNGGUH SUNGGUH.

kalau boleh nangis,nangis je.

hakikatnya kita ni hamba

kita lemah

kita lemah

kita lemah

kita tak daya, kita memang perlukan Allah.

kekuatan yang kita ada, apa yang kita rasa semua dari Allah.

Allah pegan hati.

zikir lah. banyak banyak.

in shaa Allah. 

kekuatan tu akan dapat. ketenangan tu tak terhingga.

nikmat dia hanya si pengamal je yang tahu.

so te point kat sini, tak guna kau tgok video motivational, dengr motivation ceramah, lagu hall of fame ke, saya boleh ke tapi kalau Allah still taknak bagi kau that kekuatan, or motivasi  , ure ain't nowhere. 

sebab tu ada doa. kena doa.

jangan bongkak and riak sgt.

Nyawa pun Allah pegang.

kalau Allah stopkan jantung kita now.

terus terkapai,mati.

sebab tu, syukur kat Allah.

zikir selalu. zikir jangan putus.

in shaa Allah.

Allah tu maha BAIK.

thanks

*hakikatnya post ni untuk aku jugak,dan kepada sesiapa yang perlukan penyelesaian. This just my 2cents.

elyn,